Sunday, July 24, 2016

WunderGuy vs. the Brain Tumor

I know. I know:

I haven't posted in forever.

I know. I know:

According to conventional wisdom - as well as a few friends in the publishing industry - prospective agents and editors worth their salt will Google my name and see that I fell off the interweb's radar at the end of 2015. (Except for Twitter. My sweet obsession. Ah: Twitter. I wish I could quit you...) My radio silence could cause them to question my commitment to building my platform. And this would be bad! Maintain platform! Must brand! Blahty-blahty blah.

I've been meaning to write. For months. Really. But, well-- things this year have been... complicated.

It didn't seem right to post writing-related stuff because 1.) I spent the first half of the year working on a Top Sekret project for one of my VIP clients, which I can't talk about, and 2.) I've been dealing with the day-to-day of life-and-death and that makes practically everything else pale in comparison.

As for the whole life-and-death thing -- I just didn't have the energy to post about that. Back in January, too many things were up in the air, with too many unanswered questions. Writing about it seemed opportunistic, somehow. And too damned depressing.

However...

I started blogging in 2005 as a way to keep friends and family in the loop about a Major Medical Adventure that necessitated, among other things, a drive from Michigan to California and back again.

Now, 7 months into 2016's Major Medical Adventure Redux, though many questions still remain, perhaps the time has come to revisit my blogging roots. So many people have asked about WunderGuy and his continuing battle with the Brain Tumor of Doom (I call it "Fred"), so, without further ado, heeeeere's the update:

The Backstory:

Last year, WunderGuy had not one, but 2 brain surgeries. The first was to remove an atypical, fast-growing meningioma on the surface of his brain. (Likely caused by radiation in 2011 and 2012 to keep his original oligodendroglioma in check. Oh that man! Dealing with not one, but TWO brain tumors. It's like winning the lottery, only much much much suckier.) The second was six weeks later to relieve pressure and drain fluid in the surgery site.

Stereotactic radiation followed, last May, which would have been enough to make most brain tumors shrivel and die. Not Fred. Nope. Instead of sending Fred into cranial raisin-hood, the radiation made him go super-nova like a monster in a bad sci-fi movie.

Last December, right before Christmas, WunderGuy suddenly lost the use of his right side. Overnight, he went from being a little fatigued and needing a nap during the day to being unable to sit up on his own.

The tumor was back in a big way, growing so quickly that it was causing the brain to swell. Massive doses of steroids followed to get the swelling down enough for surgery.

January 26. 3 days before surgery. How I remember him.
On January 29, WunderGuy had his 4th -- and likely final -- brain surgery.

This one didn't go like all the others. In the past, he's been up and walking on his own within a day. In 2015, he was baking bread within a week of being discharged from the hospital. This year: he hasn't walked on his own since.

See, meningiomas are supposed to stay on the top of the brain, which generally makes them fairly dull, as far as brain tumors go. But Fred never got that message. Fred grows so fast and so aggressively that he followed the scar tissue from the original surgery back in 1996, infiltrating deep into WunderGuy's brain, causing all sorts of carnage.

WG's right side was unresponsive. Though he regained some use of his right hand, his right leg is still not functioning. He spent all of February in U of MI hospital, convalescing and learning to walk again. Most of March was spent in a sub-acute facility closer to home. (It's a 3 hour trip one way from our house to U of MI -- more in winter. I have named every crack in that stretch of I-94.)

He came home at the end of March able to do some minimal walking with assistance, requiring 24 / 7 round the clock care. He was making slow, but steady progress, until the end of April --

That's when we discovered that Fred was back. With a vengeance.

And Now, For Something Completely Different

WG spent May spent back in the hospital at U of MI. But this time was different. He's no longer a candidate for surgery. Or for radiation. The only thing that keeps Fred in check is massive doses of steroids. Which you can't do for very long.

So, now, we are into the wonderful world of experimental chemotherapy. Which no one -- not even the most optimistic of docs -- is suggesting will get rid of Fred, or even cause Fred to shrink. At this point, they're simply hoping to slow Fred's growth spurt down.

After spending over 100 days in the hospital this year, WG is home now. He's done all the Occupational Therapy and Physical Therapy Medicare thinks is worthwhile. He requires constant, vigilant round-the-clock care. I am his caregiver. He literally has to be told how to hold his toothbrush, or his spoon, and how to use it.  He can still feed himself, sort of. He drinks from a straw. He cannot sit up on his own, let alone stand, or walk, or use the bathroom, or take a shower. And he remains fuzzily unaware of his limitations -- so he'll roll himself out of bed, or launch himself out of his wheelchair in an unguarded instant.

Happy Anniversary.
On June 12, we celebrated our 28th wedding anniversary. We had a big party, complete with food and family and friends. And while it was our anniversary, the real underlying reason for the shindig was for people who know and love Robert to see him and talk to him while they still can.

He is in no pain, which is a blessing. And he's pleasant and agreeable to everyone except our 13 year old daughter, who he relates to as a 5 year old boy would relate to an older sister, constantly trying -- for some reason -- to one-up her and get her in trouble.

We've all made huge adjustments. What was the office / den, is now a downstairs bathroom. I sleep on the couch in the living room, a few feet from WG's hospital bed. A 24-foot ramp now affords wheelchair access to our home. Our daughter keeps the upstairs clean, helps with the cooking and the house maintenance. She mourns the loss of her father and I miss my husband terribly, though we both see him every day.

And that is why this is my first blog update of the year. Hug the ones you love. Tell them what they mean to you while you still can. Life is fleeting and fragile. And it's way more important than maintaining a platform or building your brand.

11 comments:

Stan Stewart said...

Dear Ami,

I know we've never met in person AND I love you. After reading this, I don't see how anyone could do anything else.

Though I could tell things were not good, I had no idea it had gone this far. Sending a hug and all the blessings I can muster.

Your friend,
Stan

Laura Rueckert said...

Dear Ami,

I can't imagine what you and your family are going through. I'm sure it doesn't feel like it to you every day, but it sounds like what you're managing is amazingly impressive. Please try to take care of yourself during this difficult time too. I'm wishing the best for all of you.

Laura

Ami Hendrickson said...

Stan & Laura,

Thank you for your kind words of support. Our family is blessed every day by the well-wishes of people who take the time from the problems in their own lives to give us a nod or a word of encouragement.

Blessings to you, too, in whatever you are going through. If there's one thing I've learned through all of this, it's that everyone is going through something.

Onward and upward!

Rose Long said...

Your Dad keeps us informed, but I had no idea what you've been going through.
God Bless you all, we send our love

Ami Hendrickson said...

Thanks, Aunt Rose.
Every day we lose a little bit more of him. But there was so much awesome there to begin with, that he's still a great guy. Life is strange. And sad sometimes. And, with Fred, there's an element of the surreal. Like when Fred makes WG eat his bed sheet (last night) or nearly fall out of his wheelchair trying to put his hat on the cat (tonight's adventure).
We just keep on keeping on, trusting that somehow, God knows what He's doing...

Ruth Stewart said...

Ami: I cried tears for you as I read your update. Mom has given me news over the years as she hears it. I wish I had the weapons to annihilate Fred, as I personally dislike him very, very much now. Although we haven't seen each other for yours, I can clearly remember how much in love you and WG always were (and are!). Your strength as you navigate this crazy journey is a testament to what an amazing wife and mother you are. Just know that even though we may be almost strangers now, I will be daily holding you and WG up to God in prayer.
Ruthie (Kent) Stewart

Ami Hendrickson said...

Hi, Ruth.
I wish you had the weapons of mass-Fred-annihilation too. Thanks for the kind thoughts and the daily prayers. Everything here is only temporary... We just keep on keeping on...

David Brown said...

I am so sorry for what you are going through. Thank you for your words of strength. I am praying for your family.

Ami Hendrickson said...

David,
Thank you. You can never have too many people praying for you! :)

Ruth Stewart said...

Just wanted you to know that I begin and end every single day with prayers for Robert and the annihilation of Fred. God is bigger!

Carolyn Stauffer said...

Miss you both greatly. I hold you in my prayers daily.
- Carolyn